Looking Ahead

The beginning of 2009 seems different from previous years. There is a heightened sense of apprehension as I bring forward the unresolved items in my emotional agenda; yet at the same time, the anticipation and eagerness to look ahead glimmers weakly but is undeniably there.

Hope? Not exactly. It's more a feeling of possibility, which admittedly is something new to me. So for once, here are my objectives for the coming year:

1. Hit my target savings amount.
2. Loving myself more - whether in terms of material pampering or emotional protection. As much as I feel the need to be nice to others, I have to learn not to sacrifice at the expense of my own well-being.
3. Being true to myself. More often than I would like, I pretend things are all right when they are not, or that I'm not upset of hurt, even if I am. I owe it to myself and no one else, to take care of me.
4. Learning to let go. As much as I like the reflective aspect of myself, I have to recognize that it is sometimes to my detriment. Over-thinking and reacting to that paranoia can do more damage than it is often given credit for. Then again, while ignorance can be a blessing, self-delusion may also be my downfall. It's a careful equilibrium I need to balance this year.
5. Being healthy. I've been plagued by bad flu bouts, acne outbreaks and chronic urticaria last year. I'm really hoping to eat lesser medication in 2009.
   

Looks like I've set some pretty challenging targets. But I think they are all achievable. It's just an issue of mind over matter.