Birthday

11 Wall posts
7 SMS greetings
5 IMs
2 Phone greetings
2 Emails
2 SNS emails
1 Kiss

Despite all the well wishes that poured in, I'm sad.

The day started on a positive though unmemorable note. Having slept over the night before, he kissed me in the morning and wished me happy birthday before we both rushed off late for work.

I got into office and proceeded to do my routine mailbox checks. I didn't like what I saw. He had logged in to Facebook to comment on pictures posted by mutual friends, but didn't accept my invitation to be added to his network. I jumped to the conclusion that he was once again trying to hide me from his buddies (they had seen our holiday photos and questioned him about me over the weekend).

I was upset and marginalised by his secrecy. As much as he disliked talking about our relationship and his so-called private life, we had absolutely nothing to hide.

The colleagues were fabulous though. K gave me his male perspective and assured me I had nothing to worry about. S cheered me with her jokes. Engaging conversation flowed as we lunched at Al Dente Pronto.

But then 6pm came and went without a sound from him. I had suspected that his team-building activities would completely engross him, but still I hoped we could dine together, betting on his earlier disinclination towards the whole office rah-rah politicking dinner.

7pm swiftly zoomed by.

I left office and took a long solitary walk to the library.

9pm also came and went. Still no sign.

I was heartbroken, as I cut through the sultry night and passed four subway stations on foot. For once, I couldn't "walk" away my unhappiness.

By the time I finally made it home, I had lost all appetite, hope and perspective.

Well thankfully, he was very apologetic when he got home, and the meeting had slightly warranted his attention and time.

I sent him off to the airport later that night. Before entering the restricted area, he promised to make it up to me when he gets back on Sunday.

Still, it was probably one of the worst birthdays I've had so far.